January 30, 2013

Well, it’s been a couple of days since the last post. I was just going through the motions, as normally everyone goes through. I feel much better now. I’m just lucky to have met the people who I know today and that they are there to help me out when things get tough. I haven’t given up on being nice to begin with.¬†And so the story goes…

I must have mixed up being mean and having a backbone as the same thing when I was young. I always had the idea that in order to get what you want, you had to convey yourself in a way that I felt as mean or angry. I saw that to have dominance over others, you must use intimidation. I thought all of these negative emotions were necessary to get what you wanted. Obviously I was wrong!

Rarely I use anger or intimidation because I know how it feels to be on the receiving end. It ain’t fun to say the least. I don’t understand how a person could do such a thing, but then again, we can’t judge since we don’t know their past.

Where am I going with this? Well, my mother explained to me when I was about to get angry and explode was:

There’s always a better way of saying things.

I believe that to be genuinely true. I agree, it may be easier to get upset and blow off your head in order for people to hear you or to do things for you but it only works for the short-term in my opinion. It doesn’t build relationships, more like breaks them or puts your relationship in a negative light with others. There is always a better, nicer way of saying it. Instead of taking the easy route, I like to take the challenge.

Now the key to this I find is when you’re in the heat of the moment, you need to take a step back and try to find a way to become calm again so that you can look at the moment with unclouded judgment. If you may be fighting with someone, just walk away and say you’ll be back. Don’t run away though because that doesn’t solve anything, as much as you have the feeling to. It also gives the other party to take a time out as well, which benefits both you and the other person. Easier said than done, I know. Only with practice is all I recommend. I’m not saying you submit or make the other submit to either one’s solution, but there is always a middle ground or compromise.

If you’re genuine to every word you say, you can’t go wrong


January 27, 2013

So I decided to create a blog where I can express myself in a way that I understood. Writing. Talking is a more difficult task for me. With writing I can say things I normally wouldn’t say up front. And so the story goes…

I’ve been upset for the past couple of days. Something in my life happened a week ago and it has been preoccupying my thoughts. It’s nothing ridiculous though, in my opinion anyway, but has made me realize that being nice doesn’t get you anywhere in this world. I am starting to come to the realization of that. I’ve been a nice person my whole life. I’ve been taught, indoctrinated, and molded to be a nice person. Just twiddle your thumbs, sit up straight, hands in your lap and everything will be okay! But everything is not okay. I feel like I have no sense of accomplishment and that every coming day is another failure waiting to happen. But just be nice to all your friends and peers and all the people you look up to, they say.

When I look at all the times I’ve been “bad”, bad being something they wouldn’t want to see in me, I’ve felt a sense of accomplishment. Pride. Confidence in myself. For once I didn’t feel so brought down. For once I got what I wanted. For once I wasn’t at the end. For once it felt right.

Why does society have this conception of be nice and the world will fall in your lap. Everyday people are doing “bad” things. People are using each other for their own ends. For their own happiness. For their own gain. This is utter bulls**t! Those same people that are peddling this advice I bet don’t even follow it. The truth is, I think we are all wolves in sheeps clothing and all the sheep¬† that are left are the ones that get it the worst. They are taught to see but the wool has been pulled over their eyes. Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain.

Keep calm and carry on… the weight of those above you

I don’t want to be that sheep anymore. Sacrificing yourself for the greater good of all and not getting anything in return. I have had enough of it! If all of society did sacrifice themselves for the greater good, I wouldn’t mind, but we run on the basis of climb to the top and don’t look down. Feed your wants and needs, nothing else matters.

Money earned by you and spent on yourself is in the greatest of hands but money earned by others and spent on others is in the of worst hands.

But maybe I’m wrong…


Unfit for Human Consumption.